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AMRT Chapter 29: Terisa has Visitors

 
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PostPosted: Sat Jul 24, 2004 6:06 pm    Post subject: AMRT Chapter 29: Terisa has Visitors Reply with quote

Terisa is in her cell, still reeling from the latest blow she has received from the Castellan.

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But the Castellan didn't listen to her. He took hold of her shoulders and kissed her like a blow. Then he did hit her; she staggered against the wall and fell. It was the second time he had hit her. The first time, she had been full of audacity. She had told him that his wife would have been ashamed of him. She could almost have foreseen that he would hit her. But this time she was begging. Please don't do this to me. And he hit her anyway. Like her father, he didn't stop.


Terisa desperately wants to be able to fade away before the Castellan returns to break her. She wants to return to the childhood self-defense mechanism that allowed her to survive the abuse she received from her parents. But to her dismay, she has lost this ability, for here in Mordant she has become to much of a real person to be able to fade away like she used to...

And she finally realizes that the reason she cannot fade is her attachment to Geraden. For the first time in her life, someone means so much to her that she cannot bear fading away. She also feels that she has failed him, and the combination of fear of the Castellan, fear for Geraden, and shame for having failed Geraden has her in an emotional upheavel. Terisa has learned how to love for the first time in her life, and it is this knowledge that makes her "real".

She is sitting on the floor of her cell, propped up against the wall, where she landed from the Castellan's blow, when the Tor comes for a visit. He pleads with her to reveal where Geraden has gone. He tells her that the King has given the Castellan permission to do anything to her that he wishes, and that the King doesn't understand that the Castellan has been pushed too far and is now mad. He points out to Terisa that Orison is under siege, and that Geraden is safe from any pursuit. The Tor tells her that once Joyse understands what the Castellan will do to Terisa , with the King's permission, he will be horribly harmed, and may perhaps lose what little is left of himself.

And Terisa, with her new strength from her love for Geraden, refuses.

Her next visitor is Artagel. He has also come to her cell to find out where Geraden has gone. He wishes to find Geraden so he can kill him. Sad And he tells Terisa that she must be evil in some way, the cause of Geraden's murder of Nyle.

Terisa sends him away, without telling him anything about Geraden's whereabouts.

Her third visitor is Lebbick.
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"And King Joyse wants me to hurt you. He wants me to find out who you are - what you are."
A suggestion of yearning came into Lebbick's voice, a hint of wistfullness. "Sometimes - a long time ago - he used to let me get even with his enemies. Sometimes. Men like that garrison commander - But he's never given me permission to hurt someone like you."


To try to save herself, Terisa agrees to tell him anything he wishes to know, with the exception of where Geraden is. And she does, telling him the answers to all of the questions he has been asking all along, about the assasination attempts on herself and why Gilbur and Eremis think Geraden is such a threat:
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"They want Geraden dead or ruined because he really is an Imager - a kind of Imager no one has ever seen before."


Terisa suggests that the dead, faceless man is really the physician rather than Nyle. She tells the Castellan to make Artagel look at the dead body very closely to see whether or not it is really Nyle's.

Lebbick leaves, with another of his threats.

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""While I'm gone, remember something. Even if that is Underwell's corpse, it doesn't prove Nyle is alive. It doesn't prove anything about Geraden or Eremis. All it proves is that some shit-lover is still plotting something. If you want me to arrest the whore-bait "hero of Orison", don't show me Underwell is dead. Show me Nyle is alive."

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PostPosted: Mon Jul 26, 2004 2:52 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

Great read, Dutchess. You got it down to the important parts, and unlike me, kept your dissection to under a half-hour read;-) I really hate what comes next (in the book), but I guess it has to happen......
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PostPosted: Tue Jul 27, 2004 6:42 pm    Post subject: Re: AMRT Chapter 29: Terisa has Visitors Reply with quote

Great dissection, duchess! There's just one thing I'm not sure about:

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Terisa has learned how to love for the first time in her life, and it is this knowledge that makes her "real".


This is one of the central themes of the book--of all SRD's books, really: What makes us real? And I'm not sure that it's as simple as just learning how to love. I think love is a huge part of it, but I'm not sure that it's the only thing. In order to love at all, she'd have to feel real enough to have feelings that mattered. It's true that Geraden was the first one to care one way or another how she felt, but then, Eremis did too, in his own way (or at least made her "feel" like he did).

I think what made Terisa "real" was that she was finally taking action; she was choosing sides, sorting out her priorities, and trying to get things done. Was she doing it all for Geraden's sake? I'm not sure. He helped her decide which side to be on, but if it'd just been love that made her real, she

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could have waited for him with the Domne in the Closed Fist after Houseldon burned down. Instead, she stuck by him, went with him when he went to rally the Cares, in the hopes that she would be able to use her power to help King Joyse win.


I like this chapter a lot because in it, Terisa moves beyond action and into conviction. She's taken action, she's made up her own mind, and now she has to have the strength, the faith in her own reality, to stand by her convictions. I think you're absolutely right that Terisa's finally too real to escape by fading, duchess--I just think there's more to her reality than her love for Geraden. Very Happy
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PostPosted: Tue Jul 27, 2004 7:35 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

And yet it still all stems from Geraden, Myste. Her ability to act comes from the realisation that she cares for Geraden, the realisation which told her she was on his side no matter what. That was the conviction which allowed her to act.
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PostPosted: Wed Jul 28, 2004 3:35 pm    Post subject: Reply with quote

I do see your point, Murrin, but I'm not entirely convinced. What about her choice not to betray Havelock and Quillon after they gave her the lowdown on what was going on in Mordant? That was before she had any reason to be loyal to Geraden, before she was convinced one way or another about her reality on the New York side of the mirror. She didn't tell either Geraden OR Eremis about Havelock and Quillon right away--that was a choice she made for herself, and IMO that's when she started getting a grip on her own reality, whether she was convinced of it herself yet or not.

In no way am I trying to belittle Geraden's importance in her finally figuring herself out--Terisa became who she was because of him. But it wasn't love alone that made her "real." What made her real was making choices and decisions even before she had any clear conception of what "love" is.
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